past week...

so this past week has been good, not much to report to be honest. the players club started and i am in second after event 1. manny came in and did a sweep and run, freakin pocket 4's. check out the latest at http://the-players-club.blogspot.com.
also, my bro dan fu started his blog, copying me and hilmi like always, haha jk fufu. http://danielfu.blogspot.com so check it out if you have time. leave some comments for both these guys, i know i like getting comments even though i never do, its always good to hear from other ppl about how shitty your blog is.
went to all you can eat last night. i must say jon is a seasoned vet when it comes to that place. taking the salmon out of the sushi so he could have it alone. when i asked why he responded with "rice just takes up room" or something like that. haha i thought it was hilarious. if you ever go and need to hide some stuff you didnt finish, jon is your man, he knows all the good places.
nhl playoffs have been awesome so far. my picks so far are ok, i will run them down quickly:
edmonton in 7 over detroit
dallas in 7 over colorado
calgary in 6 over anaheim
san jose in 6 over nashville.
ottawa in 6 over tbay
montreal in 5 over carolina
new jersey in 6 over rangers
buffalo in 5 over philly
congrats needs to go out to manny and rahim for completing the sun run in just over an hour. well done boys. i didnt go because i didnt want those guys to hold me back. i would have to stop every kilometre and wait. yeah right, i would have had to walk the last 9.5 k after running half of one haha, too bad it wasnt on ice skates, then i would have made it.
so thats all for now, think i am gonna go see a movie tonight or something, tired so dont wanna do much, but still dont like to sit around so we will see.
sooner rather than later, im out. late.

It Is Official....

It is official....

that people seem to feel the same way as I do. I have received many responses to my previous blog from people who are in the same mood as me. Funny how instead of talking we all seem to shut it in until someone speaks up first. Well to all who responded: you can always count on me. And to those who didn't: you can always count on me.
It is official....

Canucks are out of the playoffs. Does it really bother me? No. I mean I am heartbroken, but at the same time understand a step backwards is necessary to take a leap forward. Next year is our year. Also official: the Burnaby Express are champions of the BCHL. Congratulations goes out to the organization, especially to my friend Bob Lambie who has been with the ownership group from the beginning and never gave up. Good luck with the Doyle.
It is official....

Laguna Beach is a fun show to watch. I know I might sound like a loser or whatever but it was on TV and I watched it for like 4 hours. Reminded me of graduating high school minus the beaches, surfing, sun, nice cars, big ass houses, lots of hot blonde chicks, hummer limo's, and it goes on. Still though, don't mind the show that much. And finally:
It is official...

well what it is a can't say. But I can say that the reason I was feeling so down, and still am, well it is official. Some of you know the reason, and some don't. To those who do not, understand that it is something I can't write here at this moment, but in the near future I will. If you wanna know you can ask me, but as of right now it is not for everyone to see.

Thanks again for takin the time to read my stuff, im tryin to update once a week or so.
Sooner rather than later, im out. Late.

How you doin?

As some of you know, and most don't, I have been going through a mountain of hard times recently. I honestly think that this right now is probably the low point of my life thus far. I am tryin to occupy myself with as many things as possible to clear my head but came to the realization that all that does is push things away temporarily, and when I am alone, my head goes nuts. It is hard to sleep at night cause I think so much. Its a double hurt cause I am so worn out from goin all day long, and then can't sleep. Anyway, I figure the best thing to do is write things down, that way I get it off my chest. I was at work today and it wasn't busy, so I sat down and decided to write down what came to my head, and here it is:

How you doin? A question asked so much in society these days that the answer has become mundane and repetitive. We ask this question out of courtesy. The reply is always the same. "Good thanks, how about you?" Or something to that extent. Nobody responds genuinely anymore. If someone said to you "I am doing shitty" would you really care? I mean sure, you would ask what is wrong, listen, maybe offer advice and try to help, but again, would you care? Would you be really interested or just thinking about how to end this conversation, that the person is just lookin for attention. For this reason, we all wear masks. No matter how we truly feel, when asked we put on our masks and say "fine, thanks." Is it that we do not want to discuss our issues? Because we all need to talk and openly share how we truly feel. Or could it be that we know the person will not care so we do not even bother? Could the reason be to personal? I believe that the question of how we are doing is asked so much in society today that without even thinking we give the generic response. It takes a lot to come out and say something, I understand and know all about that, but if the opening is given to us why do we choose to close the door? I have always been one to wear a mask. Always there to help others and listen. Try and be the rock when others need to lean. Whenever it came to me, no matter the truth, I gave the generic answer. The past couple of days have been hard on me. Many of my close friends do not know what the issue is because I chose to mask it. Sometimes people, like me, need to talk. Luckily I do have many people in my life I can turn to, some of whom know how shitty I really am right now. How you doin is not some pick-up line by Joey, or random question, it is a genuine question that has somehow along the way lost its true meaning. I wish people actually meant it when they asked. Now that it is me who needs to be asked I understand anyone who has ever needed to be asked and cared about. I know why people put on their mask to avoid the dumb response. To whoever reads this, just know when I ask, I mean it, and I hope the same goes for you. So how am I doing? Just don't judge by the mask I have on. Im out.

sorry that was so long but I needed to get it off my chest. Anyway, im headed to hockey. Sooner rather than later, im done. Late.

random hero's thoughts....

sittin in class, its 930 in the morning and i am bored as hell. i already know photoshop, wish i didnt have to learn more about it. its been awhile since i updated this but i will be doin it alot more now that i have time.
im listening to some random music right now, coalmine( by Armchair Cynics) is my current favourite song, with save me (the one by Shinedown) a close second.
anyone ever watch that Yan guy on the cooking channel, you know "its so beautiful" in that chinese accent. rice you know what i mean. haha anyway my teacher talks like him, lol. kinda entertaining but also annoying. like a bad car wreck, you know its bad to look but cant look away. speaking of.....
i was filling up gas the other day and some hick-ass dude was on the pay phone screaming at someone about something. all i heard was f-bombs. man this guy was pissed, you would think someone just castrated him, haha. so he is screaming and i cant stop looking cause it is so damn funny and entertaining. anyway he looks me right in the eyes and knows i am listening, haha man was this guy scary. so he looks at me right in the eye and is still screaming on the phone, but while looking at me, as if he is screaming at me. still, i cannot look away. anyway it lasted all of 10 seconds, but it seemed like forever. y'know when everything around is goin in slow mo? yeah that was it. anyway, i finish filling up gas and as soon as i close my gas door, the guy screams "fuck you" and slams the phone. my back was to him and i thought he was yelling at me. anyway, needless to say i jumped in my car and locked the doors, haha, and the guy got his hick-ass into some beat up hick-ass truck with his hick-ass buddy in the driver seat and they took off. jerry springer show haha, it was awesome.
k, now that i bored you all with random bullshit im out. quickly--
1- Canucks will finish 8th, go on the win the cup, check the history, 12 year cycle - 1970 join the league. 82- finals 94 - finals 06-???
2- www.the-players-club.blogspot.com hilmis new blog, not much as of yet but check it.
3- www.jenniferhicks.ca jenns website, shes a freakin awesome artist- check her stuff.

sooner rather than later, im out. late.